TIRED

The truth is: I kinda got all sick'n'tired of it.

I really love Scott Gorham, John Sykes, Darren Wharton and Marco Mendoza. They are all great people to know.
Scott's the mystrious guy that you think has no clue on who you are until he pops up with a "Hi Oz" and gives you a hug and then just as sudden is gone again and you wonder if anyone noticed but you self.

Sykes is the womanizer - living his life as a Single Man On Tour. But nevertheless, he's a a man you'll have to get to know and probably "earn knowleadge from" before you are accepted to be close enough to talk "for real", you have to earn the respect to get any respect in return. Sykes is gorgeous, sexy and all over a rockstar. It's difficult to act as you're talking to "the young blonde bloke from Reading" when you're sitting next to him talking serious matters - but if you can handle it, then you got the respect.

Darren is something ELSE. Darren is, due to the posters, not as "big" as Scott and Sykes. Darren is not paid as well as Scott and Sykes. But Darren is my hero. Talking to Darren and having his full attention is what stayed with me months after them leaving Sweden in October 2000. He's not a rockstar, he's completly unaware of how great Dare is and seems to not be able to take in how much his music means to his fans. When I ask him why he's not doing the vocals on "Still In Love With You", on his own or as a duett with Sykes, he looks surprised as if anyone would want that. My God!!! That is how it was written! And Darren makes the most wonderful version, live and in the studio.

Marco Medoza may not be an original Lizzy but I frankly think Phil would have loved the guy. No matter what time of the day he's always having time to chat, he's always polite and tries to make everyone feel special and noone left out. He's the kinda a guy you want to be best friends with. And he's a bloody good bassplayer too!

Yeah, I know. Tommy Aldrige's left to say something about. He stole my CD. Enough said. I still lack of "Renegade" and there doesn't seem to be a priority mark on getting it (or an replacement) back to me.

Thin Lizzy today means a new logo (in pink) and John Sykes on vocals and Tommy Aldrige on drums and they're planning on writing new material and .... this makes me sick'n'tired.

There's no Thin Lizzy without Philip Lynott and there's no tribute to Philip Lynott with only two original members and a drummer stealing a fan's album (alright, that was on a personal note).

Brian Downey got off in time. Darren got off a little too late and I'm not quite sure of his real motives to leave, but he's not on the recent US tour anyway and for that he'll get a big hug next time I see him and if he can get the new album finished he'll get more hugs :-)

I am probably a lot more mean that I want to be when I say they're not even doing a great job as a coverband, as coverbands usually play the not so common tracks, and of course a coverband usually can't present any original members at all. AND I know I don't have to go to the shows, I can do what many has done, I could stay at home.
But seeing them, talking to them. Watch Scott play the guitar. Hear Sykes sing. Hear the old songs live again. It brings me something I haven't had. Stay away will make me say they've lost. Going is my way of giving them the benefit of doubt.

My 6 years at University was focused on drugs. Not taking them but studying them. I wanted to know what's so attractive about them and why it's so hard to quit and how you can not noticing someone using them.

Since 1999 I've been working mainly with drugaddicts. At Uni I was specialised in cannabis and I was rather liberal but as a working woman I became more aware of other stuff. And while cannabis has been frequently written about and discussed in media my attention fell on a group of people assumed dead by most, the heroin users.

Due to all biographies written about Philip he injected heroin between his toes so that noone would notice it. The fans says they never could have guessed. Philip always told them not to do drugs. He probably knew what he was talking about. When I ask the people I work with why they use heroin they can't answer me. When I ask them to stop they tell me they can't. When I ask them what heroin is, they tell me it's a lovething. A romance. And coming off it is the worst senario possible. Easier to break up with someone you love. Easier to hurt those you love. You don't mean to - it just happens cause you can't stop it.

Things has changed a lot since Philip's days, but still people are dying.
I have devoted my life to find the truth, to find the answers on why Philip had to die. I will never find the answer, I know that. What I will do is helping others to break their habit before they go too far and can't stop it.

When I meet a new person I think "this could have been Philip Lynott" and then I give my heart and soul to make his or her life a better one.

So - I do this and I keep the Network Of Wild Ones.
That's just about what my life can be filled with.

How come (here's the core of my sick&tiredness) Scott Gorham, John Sykes, Darren Wharton, Marco Medoza and Tommy Aldrige won't give part of their income of the Europe/US tour 2000-2001 to the Black Rose Trust?

Actually. Mr John Sykes: You gave me your word and I trusted you.

Being disapointed and let down by your idols, see them not meassuring up to your expectations is something I never get used to. What would they be without Philip? I don't expect everyone to be like me (I tend to walk the edge) but reach out and give some help - is that too much to ask?

Scott, Sykes and Darren keeps telling me this is a tribute to Phil, not a "come-back". They're keeping the music alive and makes sure it won't be forgotten. But Dare is the best tribute ever to Phil. To carry on, move forwards... Sykes (the band and solo) is the very same. It's music. Where Phil would be today on a music scale I don't know, but I doubt he would have been doing the exact same thing...
Maybe he would have liked them to carry on the band without him, what do I know?
It broke his heart to give up Thin Lizzy.

There are heroin users dying all the time.
People who's names will only be remembered by those who were affected.
Philip will never be forgotten, his name will keep travel the world.
His music meant everything - who he was has been discussed widely - let Philip rest in peace.
If a statue is the right way to do it - then let those who earned money on his music pay for it.
If having a Black Rose trust with an annual award is the way - make it happen, it's not that difficult... at least it doesn't have to be difficult.

How much has the management and the recordcompanies given (I believe charity gives taxreductions)?

I could go on and on and on but as I am really sickandtired of it all, I wont....

Carina 1963 - 2001
R.I.P.