Saturday, December 31, 2005

Ozzie's Planet proudly presents My Yearbook 2005

Best Book:
"Namedropper" by Emma Forrest
Best CD:
"Change Of Track" by Locomotive Breath
Best Concert:
Mötley Crüe in Oakland, California
Best Single:
Here we go again, why don't I just remove this category?
On the TV:
Third Watch was aired for the last time... It's been a great time. I will definitly miss the show!!!
The Sexiest Man:
My own, thank god!
Best Moment:
Sweden Rock Festival - what a buzz it was!! And Dublin on the erection of Phil's statue of course.
Worst Moment:
The Sunday after Sweden Rock Festival...
Awesome Internet Experience:
Not much really. Internet has been as common as the phone used to be (and is of course).
Best Gig:
Shame to name it a gig, but Dare at the Point was brilliant. Too bad they weren't allowed to be in the spotlight.
Best Record Sleeve:
"Change Of Track" by Locomotive Breath
Drink of the Year:
White wine :-)
Best Movie:
Hmm, tricky indeed. Must think some more about it...
Eyes of The Year:
Oh, Nikki Sixx of course ;-)
Best Ian Gillan Tune of The Year:
Clearly Quite Absurd (Deep Purple)
The Place of The Year:
Sweden Rock
Best Metal Club:
None.
Nicest Person:
My boss.
Asshole of 2005:
Someone at my office.
To summarize:
Ups and downs, but mostly ups!
Final words:
Been a great year with lots happening. Been in the States for the first time and it was nothing like I ever expected. Can't understand why it took me so long...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Rapture...

Listening to Ian Gillan & Deep Purple and their new album "Rapture Of The Deep" and it's absolutly brilliant. Feels like a Gillan solo album and this is clearly what I have missed in my life.

It's strange though to be a "ordinary listener" after being "part of the family" for such a long time... I do miss it some times specially when I hear Ian's beautiful voice in Clearly Quite Absurd... I remember how much fun we used to have, all of us. How I'd show up at a show and the party begun. Those were the days...


After all we said today
The strangest thought occurred
I feel I ought to tell you
But it's clearly quite absurd
Wouldn't it be wonderful
If you could read my mind
Imagine all the stuff
That we could leave behind
How many words you waste
Before you're understood
Or simply sow some seeds
You'd do it if you could
Let me take a moment
Of your time
Inside you mind
I know what you're thinking
But I don't know what to say
The turmoil and the conflict
You don't have to feel that way
Look into my eyes
And feel my hand upon your heart
Holding us together
Not tearing us apart
How many words we waste
To justify a crime
Compare it to an act of love
That really takes no time
Why not take a moment
Of your time
Inside your mind

Monday, December 19, 2005

I don't like Xmas

Just to make it clear, I don't like Christmas. I
don't like how people change because of a stupid
weekend. All of a sudden you HAVE to do this and
that and things just gotta be PERFECT and I loath
it. Totally.
I don't mind getting presents for people I like
but I hate those wishlists where you can't buy
anything that's not on the damn list. What's up
with that? Where's the imagination?
And then there's the food. All the bloody food
that has to be on the table to be consumed in one
day. More food that you eat for a week usually.
Now it has to go down in a certain amount of time
so you can get a pause before you dig into the
next dish. Why?

It's really one of the few subjects in life my
dad and myself agree on - Christmas should be
spent somewhere far away from everyone else,
preferably in a cottage in the Alps or something.
Plenty of show, Glüwine and nice company. I'm
sure they'd have a tree with beautiful lightning
and and it'd be a blessing staying there.

Imagine just for once not being part of this, to
NOT watch all the traditional tv-shows....
--

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Music from the past

Isn't it strange how music can bring back memories in an instant second? A certain sound make all the memories come back as if they never left. Some music makes me feel extremly good but there are some tunes that I will never be able to listen to again without feeling a big black hole in my heart. Music that changed my life, or rather episodes that changed my life and the soundtrack that went with it.
The other day we played som tracks from the past, White Zombie "More Human Than Human", Ministry "Thieves", Nine Inch Nails "Terrible Lie" and Sepultura "Refuse/Resist" - all soundtracks to my days at the Teesside University in Middlesbrough. I used to hang at the Orgasmatron Club every Thursday and it was just a blast. I'd be on the tiny dancefloor headbanging for hours and hours. Oh how easy life was then. It's been 10 years now. Everything was crazy, but in such a easygoing way. Life was filled with teenage dramas (I was living with kids, several years younger than myself as I entered the Uni as a freshman instead of post-grad as I was)... Every week there was broken hearts, failed classes, parent-stuff, suicideattempts and of course too much booze. This was when I learned to drink vermoth & lemonade, which I drank on the weekdays. Thursday - Saturday it was Snakebites or occacsionally Jack & coke. And during the exams we stuck with the cheapest vodka and coke. When I came back home to Sweden I was totally alcoholic. Thank god I couldn't afford keep drinking like that when I came home!!
I remember the guys in my house with a smile on my face, I wonder what they're doing now. What happened to their dreams.
Did they stay together with their sweethearts?
Did they finish Uni?
Are they alive?
Are they happy??
I guess I should google them and see if I can find out something... :-)

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Weird

My fiance is out tonight, with one of his friends. having dinner and
listening to music noone else ever heard of and getting lost in
endless details. Whatever makes him happy. I'd be the same if the
topic was about Sykesy or... well, Sykesy. I guess Gillan or Poison
would do as well.

I decided to relive the Friday-nights I used to have a s single, but
without the Chinese take away as I nolonger live in a town with a
Chinese restaurant. I put on my warmest and most coziest pants, light
a fire and turned on the telly. I was hopping for something nice to
fall asleep to when I discoverd a marathon broadcast of Britney
Spears and Kevin, some kind reality show showing how they met and
played cat & dog or whatever before they finally got married.
Everything took 3 hours, including advertisment and news. I hardly
know anything about Britney. I'm a hard rock fan. But yes, I have
heard some of her hits and I know someone who know someone who wrote
songs for her in the beginning. I also know she doesn't drink, smoke,
take drugs nor have sex. But I guess that's old news cause even I
know she got a baby not too long ago. Anyway, this reality-thingy
caught my interest totally as she seemed extremly normal. We used to
go on like that with our cam corder ten years ago, nothing I'd be
proud of showing in public but, yes we did it too. She's got it all
and is normal too.
What a world, uh?

Had to take a swirl in the jacuzzi, and I glass of wine to fully
understand what I've seen and now I am here, writing about it. Who
would have guessed?
Somehow she came out a better person although she was a bit drunk,
and she smoked and she bragged about having sex - not at all like
Vince Neil on the the reality shows he's taking part of - and I doubt
she has fake tits as my former colleagues used to debate.

Love can be sex, but it's not until love is *everything* that love
truly can be love.
She's a wise young lady. I hope she'll be happy forever and after :-)

On the other side, I have lots of work to do now. We're kicking off
the festival on December 3, having Clawfinger, Krokus and Saxon
playing. I don't know who I want to headline 2006 years Festival, I
wanted Journey to do it really badly but I can't see that happening
as they actually told the entire world they would .... It's kinda
crap working at the best hard rock festival in the world. Everyone's
there but I don't get to see much....
Anyway, I'm off to bed.
--

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Back in the office

So, I'm back here again. Already been here for 2 weeks. Time's just flowing by. I was afraid I wouldn't have anything to do when I got here, but I was indeed wrong about that. Already making plans for next summer. God, I love this job!!

Friday, August 26, 2005

a Weekend To Remember

... what a weekend. I don’t think I’ve really managed to understand everything as yet. I must admitt I was nervous, very nervous about going.
How would it be?
Would anyone I know be there?
Would the statue be fine?
Would Dublin be the same?

The quick answer is that, no - Dublin wasn’t the same.
A lot had happened the past 10 years and of course it is summer now, last time it was chilly and rainy January. I was surprised to recognise places and still knowing my way around (we didn’t really get lost, except for the last time but that was accidentally on purpose)...

We arrived early afternoon on Thursday and slowly made our way to Grafton Street. I was eager to show my fiancé where things happened 10 yrs ago and where I met somebody - anybody - giving out details long forgotten, but still not. I was quite disapointed seeing they had moved around the furnitures in the bar and lobby of Westbury Hotel so I couldn’t show exactly where I sat when I heard John Sykes speak for the very first time or where Darren sat with his friends and where I sat with my back against everyone drinking the first cup of coffee in my entire life, together with my friend and hero Eric Bell. Also the small and narrow streets where Eric had shown me where they used to hang out and where they used to play, weren’t there. Well, I guess they were there, the houses just didn’t look the same and the formerly clubs that were shops 10 yrs ago where now something else, not looking the same at all. But Ha’Penny Bridge were there, Slattery’s - although not opened, the Temple bar too and, of course, Grafton street.
I remember Harry street - not the name, but the actual street. The Westbury was there then and it still is there today. I guess this is now the hotel you should stay at if you wish to live next to the statue of Phil Lynott.

When we arrived to Harry street on Thursday evening it was just minutes after the truck had arrived with the statue. I didn’t know of course, how would I? It was just the fact of being on the right place at the right time. It happened the last time too, when we walked into Slattery’s the same moment as they were bringing out the large mirrored Thin Lizzy sign that they would use for the concert... Naturally we stayed on, outside Bruxelles. Not having the time for a drink. Philomena was there. Having the final word on where exactly the staty should be put and how it should be angled. The workers looked as if they did this every day, calm and professional. Naturally it was extremly exciting, the first glimpse of the statue. The legs, the arms, the bass. I’m glad I got to see it as it saved me from the anxiety of not being close enough during the unveiling.

Friday was the evening of the unveiling and at the Point they were rehearsing the concert during the day. I never seen so many people in such a tiny little street, but everyone was there. Everyone. I cried of course. Everything just made me cry. I’m such an emotional baby sometimes. But honestly - this is what we’ve been working for so long, and ”the boy is back in town” - I mean, I half expected Philip to come walking...

After the unveiling we walked over to the Liberty hall where the Roisin Dubh Trust where giving a show to remember. First there were a chance to mingle with everybody - most likely everyone Phyllis knew would be in town and has supported the trusts work, writing letters to her and, as she said - she knew all of us and we were all part of the family. Speaches were held, Graham and Audry were awarded with a enscripted glas plate so they would never forget this day - as if they ever would - and always remember that we appreciate their hard work and loyalty. Philomena recieved a beautiful ”black glas” vase which I am sure means a lot to her... Thin As Lizzy, a band I’ve only heard of but never seen live, had reformed for this night and played to us. I was the female voice screaming for ”Wild One”!! It was a great night, but still only the night before the real concert.

Philip would have turned 56 on August 20 - everyone kept saying it was his 55th birthday - and the celebration took place at the Point. I bought our tickets thru the Roisin Dubh and got the best seats in the house. Just left of the stage, on the balcony. One could easily notice that the trust hadn’t had anything to do with the concert, it was nothing like The King’s Call in 1996. Uninspiring bands that probably had no clue on who Phil were, played their own songs. I tried to keep an open mind but it was hopeless. In the middle of all this comes Dare.
Still, in my humble opinion, the best band to come out of Thin Lizzy and in it’s own form the best tribute to the music of Phil Lynott. The Point was still only filled to a quarter of what would come. Philomena hadn’t arrived yet. It made me so sad cause I know she haven’t had many chances of seeing them and I think she would have liked them so much. They were brilliant, as usual, only 3 songs while one was Emerald the celtic way. You all remember when we heard about the arrangements Darren and Scott did - well, this was one of them and it was purely magnificent. Yep, on came the tears... I wish they never stoped (Dare I mean, not the tears). I wish they’d kept playing until it was time for Gary. But three songs were the limit.
Still - it was the best tribute - thank you for doing it and i hope to see you really soon doing a full set!!

Last time I saw Gary Moore was at the Sweden Rock Festival, and I left after 2,5 songs. It was the blues all over. I truly can’t tell if a guitarist is brilliant or not when he plays the blues. Maybe this makes me the ignorant and shallow kinda person, but at least I am honest. Starting off with ”Walking By Myself” and then straight into the sea of Thin Lizzy. Brian Downey on drums and Jethro Tulls’ bassplayer Jonathan Noyce formed the band.

I don’t think I could exaggerate this - but it was brilliant. Nor do I think I ever been to a concert with such a fantastic sound. Gary played his guitar as if his life depended on it (and in some ways it did - he was after all in Dublin playing to the most dedicated Thin Lizzy fans). Scott, Robbo and Eric Bell came up and played with him. I know things weren’t perfect. You always want more (and not necisary Moore), Eric should have played more than just ”Whiskey In The Jar”, Scott and Robbo should have been allowed to play together and I assume Robbo should have played on ”Don’t Believe a Word”, but I still think it was perfect. It left me wanting more, it left me understanding where my precious John Sykes and John Norum got their inspiration from. But what made it all worth while was when Gary stood there in the spotligt and started singing ”Old Town” ending it with ...”I’ve been spending my money / In the old town / It’s not the same / When you’re not around, when you’re not around...” and goes right into ”Parisienne Walkways” - you guessed it, I’m crying so hard I can’t even see anything infront of me... But try it your self, put on ”Old Town” and make it a song for ”he” instead of ”she” and you get it... I couldn’t feel more symphaty for Gary Moore than I did just then.
Welcome back to the Lizzy world mr Moore, even though twinguitars don’t seem to be your ”thing”.

There were at least 2 parties afterwards, one with the Lizzies and one with Phyllis. I opted for the Phyllis & fans party and that’s where I let everything sink in, had a few drinks and tried to relax, feeling the tensions and excitements take a rest.
Sadly we had to be at Dublin airport at 5 - in the morning - so we left the party at 4 with Phyllis still singing and chanting and having a good time. What a wonderful woman she is. So stunningly beatiful, incredible strong and totally focused. I wish I’d known her back in the days. I guess that mean I wish I was older too. And I do, I wish I’d got to know her son, to see him play and hear him sing.

At 14.00 Sunday we’ve been awake for 30 hours or so, apart from the 2 hours on the plane, we step off the bus and into the local pizza shop, get ourselfs pizza for breakfast before we crash into bed, our own beds, at home. Waking up is surreal, did it really happen? I can still hear ”Dancing In The Moonligt” ringing in my ears from the party...
Yes, it did happen.
The statue we all helped putting in place is there now, Gary Moore once more plays rock and Philip Lynott is very much alive in our hearts, there’s no risk of him being forgotten.
Phil’s music still brings us together.
Yes, it did happen.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Old Town

I'm back from Dublin and the unveiling of the statue of Phil Lynott.
Can't really write now. Still too much going on in my head. What a
weekend it's been. So much emotions, so many tears, so many surprises.

I needen't to worry about any of the things I was worrying about
before - but how would I have known? Better to have it this way and
be positively surprised.
--

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I'm not afraid of flying...

... but the recent plane crashes definitly makes me uneasy...
--

Sunday, August 14, 2005

The Boy Is Back In Town

Off to Dublin on Thursday morning. On Friday the statue of Phil
Lynott will be unveiled and it's just about time. I have mixed
feelings about going, for the last couple of weeks I didn't want to
go at all. Too much people and everything. But now I'm looking
forward to it. Most of all I am looking forward to see all my fellow
Lizzy-fans.
I've only been in Dublin once before and that was almost 10 years
ago, January 4 1996. I made a deal there and then to see the same
peple 10 yrs after - no matter what happened in our lifes, but I
honestly don't think that will happen. I don't really care about them
anymore, they're not part of my life and I'm really not that
interested in what has happened to them... Isn't that really weird?
My life circulated around a few people, all Thin Lizzy-fans and we'd
talk all the time and meet up for drinks and we were just the best of
friends.
Times changes. I used to be one of the boys until that night in
Dublin when they sort of realised I was a "girl" after all. One of
the most weird experiences really. Things just wouldn't be the same
after that. But they got worse and they got uglier and now it's like
a big, green, gooey monster that I just want to bury and forget about.
It's sad. I've heard about reunions and friends staying friends for
ever and ever. I thought we all had that, but we didn't.
Something happened.
Life happened.
Anyway - the Lizzy-fans are many and from all over the world and
Dublin will be filled with them so I really do look forward to it
now... :-)
--

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Thin Skin

Forgot to say I finished reading Emma Forrest's 2nd book, Thin Skin. It wasn't at all like Namedropper and Cherries In The Snow. Thin Skin was a lot more serious. The humour was there, but the sadness and bitterness and the despair were many times more present. In several ways it was a horrible book, it was awful to read. But not because of how it was written or the language or anything like it but because it had a revolting topic.
Beautiful being bad.
A really scary book.
Made me want to slap Ruby. You know, really hard so she'd wake up from the fantasy world she's living in. But she would have liked it, she would have thought she deserved it. Anyone knowing anyone with any of the "modern" disorders should read it... everyone else too. It's a nightmare. But most important it's a book that opens your eyes.
The sadness is brutal.

Addictions

Ice cream; Mövenpick is my first choice, strawberry flavour. Ice cream or sorbet. I love it. 2nd best is a really good vanilla ice cream, I'm really not that into full fat, lots of cream, kinda ice cream. I don't mind ice cream made of tofu or oat. I rather want the vanilla flavour. The perfect setting being warm raspberries on top of vanilla ice cream. I love when it melt together... yummy.

Hot tub bath; the water should be just a little bit more warm than you can take. You need to get burned on your foot when you try the water. The trick is to get used to the heat. I love it. I use all kind of stuff to highlight the hot water. Bath oils (yang-lang, menthol, rosemary etc), bathbombs and bubbles. I love the bubbles stuff from Lush (www.lush.com). Auntie Pamela and Two timing tart are my favorites. Makes you feel a godess with all the bubbles surrounding you. Mostly I read while bathing (once I lived in an apartment where I could adjust the tv in the livingroom so that I could watch tv from the hot tub, which I did all the time) but there nothing more relaxing than lying in a hot tub, surrounded by bubbles or fused by eteric oils, lights out apart from a few tealights ... that's life quality.

Cats; are there anything more fantastic on this earth? Wouldn't think so. The most perfect creation. Enuff said.

I could go on, and I will, but not tonight. Only a few weeks left until I start working again. Still have the the upper floor to get fixed. I feel we can handle it. It'll be beatiful when we're done.

Hopefully my postings will be more interesting when I'm back at work :-)

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Losing tan

Because of the sun's absence I am starting to lose my tan.
Isn't it typical?
I wanted to look gorgous just a little bit longer.

Anyway, I was thinking of what I wrote last time. About the music that comfort me the most right now. It has to be John Waite. Whatever I do I can relate to him and his music.
It's weird. I haven't even seen him live. I don't know anything about him. Still, it seems my world is revolving around him right now.

Monday, August 01, 2005

Summertime

It's been raining a lot. And thunderstorms too. It hasn't been that bad really. We've had things to do on our relatively new house, and you can get bored with being on the beach every day. Or so I am told anyway. I love being on the beach. Or laying in the garden. My iPod filled with John Waite, Journey, John Sykes, 3DD and the occasional Mötley Crüe tune. Not forgetting "Life" by Brides of Destruction which is a lifesaver song. I totally love it. Must hear it first of all when I switch on the iPod. It's become a soundtrack to my life. Other songs that definitly are soundtracks would be "In Dreams" by John Waite and "I Wish It Would Rain" by John Sykes and just about every song made by Phil Lynott. "In the summer we went crazy, we fooled around all the time..." "Please Don't Leave Me" - was there ever a better, more summerish song written?

Music is what makes my heart go faster, what makes me survive the grey days when everything just seem useless, pointless and meaningless. I hate those days. But I hate the days when music isn't helping, even more. It's been over a year now since I felt that way. I guess it all had to do with me moving and leaving my old life - walking in an endless circle - behind. I used to get up in the morning, go to work, work, come home exhausted, eat some shitty food and fall asleep in front of the tv. Saturdays and Sundays were spent sleeping and doing the laundry. If I ever fel up to get out, have a drink I usually couldn't afford it as my appartment cost almost as much as I was earning, and I didn't earn that bad... My life wasn't good. I just kept getting older and bitter and anti social. I was good at my work, I really was but I wasn't appreciated. I followed my heart more than the rules and the candle was burning no ends.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Cherries In The Snow

Just finished reading Emma Forrest's latest book. I have fallen in love with her totally. When I first read Namedropper a few weeks back I felt as if I should have written. I never once thought I *could have* written it, but I would have. It's perfect. I cry when she does. I cry when she won't. And I laugh and I smile.
Same goes with Cherries.

I'm drowned by irish authors - their books are like drugs. They're never as good as the first one, but I keep read them and they keep writing them. Then Emma Forrest comes about. I picked up Namedropper in a cheap bookstore in San Francisco - I took it after reading on the back of the cover. I sometimes do that. I also bought a book on making bread in a breadmachine. I bought I breadmachine when I came back to Sweden, probably only because of that book.

Namedropper ended up on the shelf for a few months, until my holiday started. But as soon as I started reading it I couldn't let it go. I wish it'd never end. Before I finished it I ordered Cherries and it arrived a few days ago (had time to finish Harry Potter in between) and now I've finished it too.
Still have one to go... I've ordered it as well but it won't arrive until next week probably. I know I should give it a rest, don't take it all at once. Save something for the long and cold winter.
But how could I?
It's THERE, it will want me to read it!!
It's my OBLIGATION to read it, honestly...