Old stuff

Added some stuff (2001-2002) from my old site called Ozzie's Planet.
Some of it really is outdated. As a rant I had on Thin Lizzy. I wasn't in a good shape when I wrote that. But still, it's how I felt and I want it to be there, as a statement of some kind.
Also, there was a piece on love that was kind of fun reading again after all those years. I can only say one thing, I was right!

G'nite.

Cousin S

I recently discovered that my cousin S is a great young man, with a lot of thinking going on :-)
Thank you Facebook!

Japan

Still here. Been searching internet for the latest on Japan. Oh, how I miss that country. It's not a country, is it? It's another planet.
I wonder if it can be as fantastic as it was this time, again, the next time?

When we got home, in April, I told myself that it would have been a really non-expensive trip if it hadn't been for all the CDs I 'had' to buy - not even mentioning all the Hello Kitty items. I also said 'the next time I don't have to buy any more Kitty items becuase I have shopped for a lifetime'. Yeah right. This comes from the person who has a Hello Kitty-tattoo.
Who am I kidding??

But I guess, I don't need any more pens or mobile-pendants (specially as I have an iPhone with no place for such beauty...), but I have used the markers I got. And I am using the pens. And stickers and I write beautiful Hello Kitty-snailmail to friends.

But Japan is a lot more than Hello Kitty. It's beautiful and relaxing and I have my dearest friends there. While New York felt like coming home - Japan felt like going away and I loved it.

Random Ranting...

Our birthdays are coming up soon. Thinking about how to celebrate it. It would have been great if we had this big house where everyone could be at the same time, but I guess we'll just have to have family one day and friends another.

Other than that I have been analyzing the situation a bit.
I haven't really written here, cause 1) you who read this never give me any feedback so I don't know why you're reading and 2) I just don't know what to write.

Going back to university is a huge step, I really didn't think that at first. I just wanted to DO something. If I couldn't work. What would I do? What is it I always wanted to do?
That's right.
University.
I wanted to - not necessarily finish what I started - but I wanted to get started on the next level.

I never dreamed about weddingdresses and mr Right and that stuff. I dreamed about a doctoral ring and the Swedish king handing me my diploma in the dome of Lund. The salute for me in the park. That was my dream. I left university in 1996, to start working. I was tired after 6 years in Lund, Stockholm and Middlesbrough. I was tired of always being broke (that's what happens when you spend everything on hard rock concerts), never really gaining any money. Never being able to leave home. So I left.
My excuse was to get some life experience, rather than just write about a life I never had or knew about. It's been 12 years now. I have done some courses in between.
But all in all it's been 12 years since I left the sociology of law department.

Coming back was a dream, I never expected so much to have happened. I didn't expect it to be so hard being 12 years older than everyone else. Even the doctoral students are a lot younger than me. Once I got fired from my job (I can't really talk about it, but if the offer is right I'll write a book about my experiences...), it took me less than a week to know university was to be my salvation.

Anyway, I hope I can write some more, more often, in the future.
If you want to.

Changes

Everything's changes.
Some for the good and some for the not so good. But after some time most changes has a silver lining.

So, allthough I have lost a good friend in the name of 'changes', I have found others who are great. I am not replacing anyone, just discover qualities that you don't really need to find in a person until you hit rock bottom. For better or worse. While I found a really bad quality in one friend I found a very good one in another.
Harmony is constant, you just have to digg a little deeper.

Having said that - just started to plan a new trip to Japan.
Is 6 months enough to get the money together?
Probably not, consider I am a postgrad student now.

Twilight

Being a fan of Vampires since reading 'Interview with the Vampire' by Anne Rice in 1991 I do actually like the new wave of vampires coming over us. I've seen True Blood and complety and utterly fallen in love with the splatter. Having only heard of Twilight (never even read the books) I have had it on my 'to-do-list' for a long time. Now I have seen it. And was disapointed.
How could I not be?
Vegetarian vampires?
Oh c'mon. What's that?

Even True Blood was on the edge of losing the concept but it's still fun and the sarcasm is flooding. I like that.

But Anne Rice was true to Bram Stokers and there's a certain 'rules' that just can't be forgotten. Vampires might just be a a fantasy caracter, but still - I am true to Anne Rice (even if she's no longer her self).

When I discovered vampires I did nothing but reading about them. I read thru everything Anne Rice written and then everything I could find after that.

The hightlight was going to the place where the original Dracula was written in Withby, UK. I could sense their presence and it was great. I went there twice, in the fall of 1995 and in the winter of 1996 and I really hope I can go back again, some day. Not only was it beautiful, but it was also such an inpiration being there. Seeing the remains of the abbey.

I was acused of having a a sexual orientation of some kind (never really knew what they meant) by this affection of vampires, but it never was. Vampires for me was another life, a community of outcasts that belong together.
Eternal life.
Immortal.
Yeah, it had nothing to do with sex, but everything to do with life. Not a cry for help, but a need of understanding.